What...?
Yes... you heard it right, we are moving yet again. Its been a long year... A long year of deciding and experimenting and we are done with it. The conclusion of this experiment is.... we love Kentucky. I felt it the second I left but because it was such a big move I ignored it... well I can't contain it anymore... I. LOVE. KENTUCKY.
Almost a year ago we made a rather abrupt move to Ohio. We were in a situation where I needed to work, but I wasn't ready to put Jolene in a daycare. Therefore when my mother in-law ( Trevor's mom) offered to watch Jolene so I could work, I packed my bags and we headed north. We moved in with my in-laws and decided to get jobs, save money, and be happy! That was the plan... But things never go according to plan.
Here is a few things I have learned this year:
1. Living with family is NOT easy; once you become your own family you develop a way of life. Even if you have very similar beliefs and views, no two families are the same.
2. Just because you move to a city that has a lot of job opportunities doesn't mean that you are going to find a job easy. All that means is more competition and stress.
3. " Mo' money mo' problems"
4. If you already have it in your head that you can't have someone else take care of your child, even having a family member watch them doesn't ease the anxiety. I simply can't be away from Jolene. I am a CNA and I can't sit there and take care of someone else when I could be caring for my child.
5. There is no such thing as security. All you can do is the best for your family at that time. If things change then you change. I want my child to say "my mom was there" not " my mom got me everything I wanted".
There are more things I learned and maybe one day I will feel the need to share them. But for now this is as much as I can get out right now without completely going into too much detail.
So! We have decided to go back to Kentucky, where we originally lived. Where we have all our family and friends. Where we can live in the country and be comfortable. Where we don't have to put Jolene in daycare or leave her with anyone. We are going back to square one. There is a lot of changes to come! Lots of changes! Hopefully being out in the country will give me more time to sit and blog. Best way for me to channel my thoughts....
Lalala.... stay tuned for the new adventure!
